Something I have noticed the last couple of weeks as I lengthen my runs in preparation for the marathon is that there is a point about ¾ of the way through the run when darkness descends. Today it was at mile 10 of 14.
It starts as a whisper. There’s a little voice that says something like, “maybe you should shorten this run since what you planned was so long. You aren’t really up to that today.”
Of course I ignore the voice at first, but it recruits helpers. My feet start to hurt. I suddenly realize my hands hurt because they are so cold. I get a stitch in my side.
The voice tries again, louder this time. “Just call it quits, no one will know.”
By now, I’m starting to doubt myself, agreeing with the voice. Maybe I should just turn back.
That’s when the darkness hits me and my mind starts questioning everything – myself for trying to run so far today, my sanity in signing up for a marathon (was I crazy?), even unrelated things like goals or projects at work.
But I just keep running. One foot in front of the other. Keep breathing. My running app tells me I’ve gone one more mile.
Then I realize how FEW miles I have left compared to when I started. And how if I have run this far, that little bit won’t hurt. The voice finally quiets. The darkness lifts.
Once again, I’ve kicked Resistance in the face. It’s a battle every time, but the exhilaration I feel when I finish is so worth every step!
I am running in the Country Music Marathon on April 27 with Team First Pres Franklin and Team World Vision to raise money for clean water in Haiti. Please consider supporting my efforts. Click here to donate. Thank you for your prayers and support.